Had just got done watching EposFox's latest upload in which he explains where his headspace has been over the past few months. Something I feel is very similar to what I myself have been feeling as well. To have that growing expectation of producing content week after week, to be chasing that YouTube dragon of relevancy is extremely tiring.
He makes several great points in what were his struggles over the years, leading up to the recent point in time. To have this fomo of wanting to produce content that is going to be on the forefront of a trend on YouTube only to feel some sort of defeatism when you don't have that spark you once had. I know first hand on how this was.
I have spent the past few months going through my own form of this fomo as well. This lead to me completely walking away from doing indie game reviews and first looks. I had this creeping doubt in the work I was doing and feeling like what I was producing held no value not only for myself but, to anyone who was seeing my videos in their feed. Epos mentions the Mr Beastification of YouTube and I really do believe the YouTube and those who are stuck in this hamster wheel of trying to one up their last video, to consistently make that arrow go up.
We're stuck in trying to appease the shareholders and letting our content become yet another example of brain rot in order to gather attention of what YouTube pushes out to some potential audience. There isn't any golden gotcha moments that many of us will be acquiring, those are consistently found by the largest channel and creators who have an entire team at their disposal for producing highly edited, highly polished content that feeds into the algorithm.
I don't want to wish this to be any longer than it needs to be but, to be having this feeling ov overwhelming dread or lack of producing something is perfectly valid. There comes a point in time when we have to step back and re-evaluate what we're doing. Some self reflection is good for us, especially for creatives, and experiment with how we should move going forward or even go into a different direction.
Closing out I wanted to share a little bit of things on my end but, to also see how you are feeling as well.
Had just got done watching EposFox's latest upload in which he explains where his headspace has been over the past few months. Something I feel is very similar to what I myself have been feeling as well. To have that growing expectation of producing content week after week, to be chasing that YouTube dragon of relevancy is extremely tiring.
He makes several great points in what were his struggles over the years, leading up to the recent point in time. To have this fomo of wanting to produce content that is going to be on the forefront of a trend on YouTube only to feel some sort of defeatism when you don't have that spark you once had. I know first hand on how this was.
I have spent the past few months going through my own form of this fomo as well. This lead to me completely walking away from doing indie game reviews and first looks. I had this creeping doubt in the work I was doing and feeling like what I was producing held no value not only for myself but, to anyone who was seeing my videos in their feed. Epos mentions the Mr Beastification of YouTube and I really do believe the YouTube and those who are stuck in this hamster wheel of trying to one up their last video, to consistently make that arrow go up.
We're stuck in trying to appease the shareholders and letting our content become yet another example of brain rot in order to gather attention of what YouTube pushes out to some potential audience. There isn't any golden gotcha moments that many of us will be acquiring, those are consistently found by the largest channel and creators who have an entire team at their disposal for producing highly edited, highly polished content that feeds into the algorithm.
I don't want to wish this to be any longer than it needs to be but, to be having this feeling ov overwhelming dread or lack of producing something is perfectly valid. There comes a point in time when we have to step back and re-evaluate what we're doing. Some self reflection is good for us, especially for creatives, and experiment with how we should move going forward or even go into a different direction.
Closing out I wanted to share a little bit of things on my end but, to also see how you are feeling as well.